Freewriting Exercise #1

Fairi is fair. right> ? Thats a saying isn;t it? or mayve just an expression. All is fair in love and way. oh no. war. war.  That was gonna be a good point and I missed spelled a waord. OMG its so hard not to delete. I had no idea. anyway back to the t first thought. fair is fair. the class had to to do this so should I. Iw would have done it in class with everyone else bt I whad to organize those materials and handouts. i hope ii I thope things will settle down shortly things ahave been so hectis,. Todaty was a really good class, but stull a bit chaortic. soea,,, speaking of iope, scractch that , speaking of hopes, I hope i can get so money soon. I;ve been so poor. I was going to try to do everything on just the measly salary that thye give me, but it's not been fun, so I valled financial aid tofday> I think I will be able to get some loan bmoeny, but it will still take a couple of weeks, and will put me eaven further in debt, sometimes I wonder if I will ever get out of debt. I gjust keep going further and further in debt. ok now I feel like this exercise has turned more into therapy than a pedagogical tool. list the thungs that I ffeel bad and maybe they will be less of an issye,. but what is the pedagogical goal, I wonder if I will learn something from this free writing exercise. I mean I already do it on my onw  soemethings, so I'm practicing, getting bettter but nit really learneing a  new skill. I wonder what wpracticing will do for me. I,,,,, the goal o the best goal I think is ti really let go and to throw the words out there without worrying about what sense they make and hope that someties they sjust foloow out beetter. Ive noticed two things. 1) at those points where a clear ideahas popped pout nicely I type better. that's reallu y weired. why do some serntences come out reallsmooth and other snot??? 2) I;m bothered by typos and misplelling much more on a computer than in my own handwritin. in my own journal about every their or fourth word is wrong or missing some letters. sometimes reading back is like trying to figure a puzzle. but for some reason on the screen its much more prblemati     now the alarm is going off and I have to puch that big orange button. I guess its not that bug. but really. I'd m nots ure how much I really want to put this out there. but fair is fair